In Alcoholics Anonymous we learn to live in what is referred to in the Big Book as the fourth dimension. This is a powerful shift in consciousness.  When I came into AA I was full of fear.  The past was over, the present included profound grief over the loss of my wife of 20 years, and the future was bleak.  I was lost in fear and had sought solace in alcohol.  That lead me to deeper despair and suicidal attempts.  I was confused and did not understand what was happening to me.

          From the first moment I walked into AA, I knew I was powerless over alcohol and that my life had become unmanageable.  Being raised Lutheran it was easy for me to believe in a Power greater than myself including all of my new friends as well as a Creative Loving Energy I had turned away from years earlier.  I trusted the group and the process.

          With each meeting, each exchange with another AA member, every new day in sobriety, I learned to let go of the past, quit anticipating the future, and experience the NOW, the present moment.  And the more I did that, prayed and meditated, I became aware of the PRESENCE which is an experience of the Diving unfolding in every person and situation.  A new-found peace began to emerge and lasted longer and longer each day.           Today I practice the PRESENCE, that is, I constantly try to have my focus be on the wholeness and beauty of each moment.  I remind myself, when I get anxious, that I have everything I need AT THIS MOMENT.  Nothing more is required for me to feel peace and serenity…just to let go and BE IN THE MOMENT.  This is much more than relief from alcohol, it is a profound new way of living that we all are learning and practicing at each moment.  How blessed we are!

Rose B.